The envy of them all: Mirror, Mirror.. who is…

I’ve never deeply struggled with envy or jealousy. So, I approach it with a sort of alien perspective. But I have been hurt by the envy and the jealousy of my friends. These are people I have respected very much and over years. However, those areas of dysfunction in their souls were spots that effected me and summarily wounded me. Therefore, I wanted to know what the Bible says about jealousy and envy. I also want to know how it works, what fuels it, and how to re-route it in order to convert that unhealthy passion into a healthy passion/energy in order to serve a healthy purpose. That conversion of negative energy into a positive energy is pivotal in maintaining friendships, community, and also good “emotional hygiene.”

Using your energy for good: How it’s supposed to work:

When I see someone has accomplished a fete I would like to accomplish, I get this intense interest in the person. It can prick my “HEY, I WANT TO DO THAT TOO” but it doesn’t overtake me. Because,  it’s not a comparison; I allow it to become a admiration for the effort put into the accomplishment. And then that, in turn, encourage to conquer my next goal. So, I allow that person to spur me on to good works (Hebrew 10:24). God has called me to be the captain and designer of my garden/life and to do it with Him Daily: “I was a craftsman daily at His side…rejoicing in the sons of men” (Proverbs 8). He has called us in Genesis to have “dominion” over our gardens/lives.

Competition:

There is a healthy competition. There is a healthy admiration. It’s called: a heart of plenty.

How it’s not supposed to work:

The heart of plenty that knows how wide and how deep the love of God is for them and for others; the heart of fear of knows only scarcity and lack which is a spiritual death for them and others. For example, it could be a fear of losing to someone else. Oftentimes, the heart of lack doesn’t have a clear understanding of the sovereignty of God in their lives and where their own boundary lines fall. “The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places” (Ps.23).

God is a generous father:

God isn’t a  god of scarcity. He isn’t the “keep away” god with you as the monkey in the middle. However, on one hand, it’s so good to learn to fall in love with contentment and gratefulness. With the other hand, it’s good to hold onto moving ahead and knowing that God has plans for you to be on the cutting edge of life!

God is more than happy for you to get married. Get married! He is more than happy for you to make money: Make money! Prosper! Have children. Hearts full of fear and poverty limit the resources and the power of God by setting themselves in as god. That god isn’t a fun god surely he/she has limited understanding, resources, etc. Putting yourself in as “god of your life” happens so subtly, that you don’t really know it’s happening. You may even be reading this and think: I totally agree. I’m glad I’m not like that. Surprise! Let the Holy Spirit convict your heart and bring anything to the forefront.

Is there an area of surrender? Is your heart tugging at you?

Neither envy and nor deception with its layer after layer of self-justification, doesn’t come from the Father of Light. It comes from the father of lies. And those lies will become so delicious to you that you will suckle them and feed them and eat from them so that they become who you are. A person conveying death. You will no longer walk in a spirit of unity and you will no longer walk in a spirit of fealty to the living King of the Universe, but you will walk in the spirit of pride (a false matrix/universal order) and you crown yourself king of your own universe. That universe will become dark and gossipy and bitter and slandering and envious and it will all seem more and more and more logical. You’ll have stories to back up the bitterness. You’ll have stories to back up your paranoia and jealousy. Why? Because sin is deceitful.  It’s scatting like a crooning sensual jazz singer making up that crap as it goes.

And you cry: “sing to us a sensual song!” You are like children. You are neither adult nor mature when you give into these things:

“They who compare themselves to themselves, they are not wise.” Actually, you are foolish. Why’s that? “The foolish man says in his heart that there is no God.” The problem that you have is that you have dethroned the ONE true God. He no longer has the right to convict you of sin as you are too busy looking at the log in your brother’s eye.

When you begin to fix your eyes on other people’s stuff or other people’s relationships, other people will then become the rod of comparison or measuring tape for what you should or shouldn’t have and you will begin to want to have dominion over them instead of your own garden (I’ll speak more on ‘what is your own garden’ later). You will want to control them. Dominate them. Congratulations, you now have an idol. Yourself. You are the object of your affection, you are the object of your attention. You ask yourself: what am I getting? What is being take from me?  You are now the little angry god of your life. Why does that happen? Where are your eyes fixed?

There is only One who is Holy. There is Only One who is perfectly whole in everything that He does, and in every character quality. He is spotless and blemish free and without wrinkle. Perfection. He’s the One who is worthy to Open The Scrolls of the Book of Life. There is only One True God. It is not you. If you doubt that, please let me examine your life with you… I promise we can find areas of complete failure and lack of completeness and wholeness in your life. “The human heart is desperately wicked above all things, who can even know the depth?”

Humility is understanding where you are in the universal order. And that is, God is God and you are not. You are a mere mortal.

Every day, you need forgiveness. Every day, you need to forgive. If you do not, you are not participating in the well of Life. Here are some verses for you: “he/she is like a tree planted by streams of living water, whose leaf does not wither, whatever he/she does prospers.” “I would that you would prosper even as your soul prospers.” “May the eyes of your heart be enlightened in order that you may know how wide and how deep the Love of God is for you.”

A person with the mindset of plenty is a mature adult who lets their soul go to the watering hole and drink. A mature soul breathes the fresh air of the Bible and let’s their soul be comforted by the Holy Spirit who renews us and helps us to renew our vows to Love Him Most. $$$That’s where are “plenty” comes from.. from Him! We run out!!!! Come on, gang, don’t dry up and wither like a vine without water and therefore no fruit. The fire of your lusts will burn down your whole vine and you’ll have nothing left for you family, nothing left of your life. Don’t be foolish.

A person with the mindset of lack says: “that person is sucking up all the air in the room and they are taking mine too.” This is simply not true. There is plenty of air in the universe. Their souls are not full. They have not jumped into the watering hole. They are a “dry and weary land where there is no water.” “SPEAK TO THOSE DRY BONES!” Set up guideposts to remind yourself to JUMP IN and DRINK!

You can choose: don’t renew your mind, you don’t renew your soul and your own passions set your vineyard on fire, or you water take your mind to be renewed, you renew your should and you surrender all of your passions to Him.

I listen to Christians every day that spout death like a fountain on one side of their mouth and on the other side of their mouth, they spout wisdom. But if they are spouting death: gossip, slander, bitterness, envy, jealousy, strife, sensuality: then their heart is not right before the Lord. It is not functioning correctly. And soon enough, they will be caught in the snare that the enemy happily sets for them. Actually, they set their own traps for their own walk of faith and they bind themselves with their own sinful nature.

This Earth is born to entropy and as sparks fly upward so we are drawn to disfunction. So, let us lead our hearts to surrender to this passion: “therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

The Joy set before you: A Dad’s love:

And have you completely forgotten this word of encouragement that addresses you as a father addresses his son? It says, “My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you, because the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son.”

You are daughter. You are son. You are forever connected to Him. That’s the reason he trims the trees. That’s the reason He prunes the vine. He *is* the vinedresser. He’s the Gardener. This is His Earth. You are His earth that He breathed on in order to bring you to give you life in order to Him to be able to walk with you. His heart will not stop.. like a restless sea.. until all of the nooks and crannies of your heart are fully surrendered to Him. He corrects so that He can be even closer. So that you, glorious you, can be even brighter. Even bolder. Even stronger in the Love of the One who died for you, his daughter, his son. Come on now, don’t you know that all of us have fallen short of the glory of God? Which one of us can fold our arms and stand far off from Him when He’s right there– reaching out–falling in love with us every minute– the people He died to fall in love with every minute and fell in love with so that He laid His life down for us and died.

It’s those special people in the Bible that catch our eyes. The Davids, the Enochs, The John The Beloved: “The One Whom The Lord Loved.” We are all of them. We are caught up without death and able to walk with Him. We are in our fields and alone in our work when He delivers the bear and the lion to our hands. We are leaning on His chest… listening to the sound of His Heart. May our hearts match the rhythm of His great big heart for us, His bride. God bless us… every one.

Fix your eyes and lay your heard on His shoulder, still your soul like a weaned child. Wean yourself from your temper tantrum of jealousy. It’s childish. Your Creator extends His Hand and invites you to grow up. Grow On. Grow in love with Him so that the seed and fruit you bear is a rich, fruitful offering to Him.

Amy

 

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About wattsofgrace

Design id. Design ego, design your life: have a little fun while you do life. "Go Get Your Life On." Christian, Businesswoman, Adventurer.
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